Dedicated to...

I'm submitting that text portrait of xxxxxx to the student art show tomorrow. It's all framed and matted now, it looks all professional... I mean, it's not a perfect piece, I could list all the flaws for you with no hesitation, but it's one of my first--no, actually, it IS my first "real" piece that I'm proud of, and now it's something that I have really mixed feelings to look at. I feel like I want to keep it, because it has sentimental value to me because I do consider it my first "real" artwork, but I also feel weird about keeping a portrait of my xx xxxxxxxxx. I have half a mind to give it to xxx sometime, and just say, "Do what you want with it, but here, you should have this instead of me." After all, who knows, if it weren't for xxx, maybe I wouldn't have had the courage or confidence to drop Longy instead of sticking to it for the sake of sticking to it, and I wouldn't have been able to try design right now in the first place, xxxxxxx and xxxxxxxxxxxx issues aside. It's a little bit conflicting.

Maybe xx would just feel like shit if I gave it to xxx. Maybe I should mail it anonymously to xxx xxxxxxx, because who wouldn't love a piece of artwork of xxxxx xxx? Hmm, that might be a little creepy, though...

When I was at the frame shop, the guy who was helping me thought the piece was really cool. He said to me, "Wow, is this a famous musician?" to which I replied, "No, it's just... a friend of mine." And he said something like "Someday he'll be famous", and I said, "Yeah, someday maybe," and he said, "He will be if he keeps getting art pieces like this done of him!" And later on, the guy said to me, "So you know, if you ever feel like coming back here and doing sketches of frames, or of people who work here or something......." I laughed at the compliments, but inside, I was telepathically screaming, "Hear that, xxxxxx?????? You should have been grateful, damnit!"